Three Poems – Ollie Schminkey

Huge thanks to Drunk in a Midnight Choir! Happy to be part of the family.



hospitals it started as a small dot, no larger than a 12pt letter. then it grew, the blind spot, to encompass the space of my entire left eye, and i looked in the mirror, saw a one-eyed creature and wondered if this made me a myth. and no, i did not stay unseeing forever. i grabbed some carrots and a kiwi and my sister drove me to the hospital, the buildings’ grey blur becoming just grey. and then, i had to pee, and then, the women’s bathroom, and then, the birth name, and then, the nurse asking me if there’s any chance i might be pregnant, and all i wanted to do was take a splintering chomp of my carrot and mutter i ain’t so much as looked at a dick since the summer of ‘84 then wink, slice the kiwi, drink, the blind spot growing, the nurse’s sweet baby…

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Practical Ways We Can Stop Centering Everything Around White People’s Feelings

Guante doing the good work once again. Always love to hear what he has to say.

Opine Season

Guante Kyle “Guante” Tran Myhre

Fun fact: white people’s feelings are magic. They can bring any conversation, meeting or movement to a halt. In a debate, they can outweigh even the most credible, concrete evidence. They can threaten someone’s job. They can even kill. White people’s feelings are one of this country’s most abundant natural resources and important exports.

Because of all this, any conversation about social justice, power, or history is going to naturally settle into orbit around white people’s feelings. And I get it: if we want to really do something about racism in this country, it’s white people who need to change the most, and it’s white people who often have the longest political/spiritual/emotional journey to undertake.

But when social justice education and/or media focuses solely on understanding racism through a white privilege framework, that can recreate the same oppressive structures we’re trying to destroy. When…

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Ferguson and Fighting White Supremacy: Dear Other White People

I’m struggling while writing this post to determine how much I should say, because let’s be real, my voice as a white person should not be the loudest in this conversation.  I am not an authority on race; I can never fully understand the weight of institutionalized racism because I don’t experience it.  There are plenty of people of colour writing about Ferguson and white supremacy in ways far more eloquent and perceptive than I (for real, scroll down to the bottom because there are so many links you need to read). But I am writing this introduction because I know that, in my own process, as shitty as it is, it took seeing other white people stand in solidarity before I even recognized that white supremacy is something I need to actively combat.

So I’ll try to be brief.  Let’s start with some background info.  I was not aware of the fact that I was white until I was about 18 years old. Where I grew up, you weren’t “white;” you were just “normal.”  I always thought that racism just meant using or not using slurs, that the bulk of it was “over,” that no one actually got killed over race any more, right?  White supremacy was just the KKK, right?

Then, partially due to my white privilege (part of which is the fact that I was college tracked), I gained access to a college education and a community of people aware of and dedicated to fighting systems of oppression.   I continually realize how messed up my thinking was before, and I have been working through how to unlearn most of the things I was taught growing up.  It’s a long process, I’m not perfect, and I’m still working.  But I’ve learned a few things along the way.

This post is kind of directed towards who I was in high school.  And I know, many of you reading this are or have been in a similar position.  (aka white kids with no clue) What I’m saying is that regardless of where we came from, or how much we need to unlearn, we need to do better, and we need to do the work.  (And all these are things that people of colour have been telling us forever and ever.  I’m not making any sort of new discovery here).

As a white person, I need to be aware of how much space I take up, when I am speaking over others, and when I am contributing to harmful, racist systems.  I try to recognize when I am silencing someone else.  I try to recognize when I am being too loud.  This is important.

But our silence, too, does not go unnoticed.  Our inaction does not go unnoticed.  When innocent people are killed and we sit back, when we say “not all cops,” when we say “but someone burned a gas station,” when we say worse, when we say nothing, we are showing where our priorities lie.  Our silence and inaction does not make us neutral.  What our silence and inaction makes us is complicit in a system of white supremacy and racism.

But I’ve done enough talking for now.  Now, it’s time for us to listen, follow, support, and stand in solidarity. Listening means researching.  Listening means doing something.

I’ve been following happenings in Ferguson very closely these past few days, and here are a bunch of articles that say all of this far better than I ever could.  If you’re listening to me, listen to me enough to read these articles, then stop listening to me and start listening to them.  (I’ll try to provide some more basic resources/start from the beginning if this is new to you, and if you have questions, feel free to ask me.  I’m not an authority, but I can probably point you towards a good article).  If anyone has suggestions for articles that should be on this list and aren’t, or suggested changes to this post, please let me know!  Also, if there’s a post out there that is doing this better than mine, please let me know!

What is White Supremacy? (and why it’s more applicable than the word “racism”)

Intent Vs Impact-  Why Your Intentions Don’t Really Matter (how it’s not really “the thought that counts”)

America Is Not For Black People (a run down on what happened in Ferguson, in addition to an introduction on systematic racism)

If There Are Good Cops Out There, Prove It (exploring the “not all cops”/ “just a few bad apples” argument as well as accountability for the police force)

Ferguson Shooting: The Last Words of Michael Brown and 8 Other Black Men Killed by Police (a photo project outlining the last words of innocent people and some peaceful community responses)

A Black Man is Killed in the U.S. Every 28 Hours By Police (detailing systematic racism and some of its manifestations)

Here is an Archived Live Stream of Cops and Protestors in Ferguson (literally just a live stream so you can see what’s really going on here)

What White People Can Do About the Killing of Black Men in America (things we can do to help)

12 Things White People Can Do Now Because of Ferguson (things we can do to help)

Beyond Ferguson: A Great Tumblr Blog on Racism (this is the #whitepeople #race page, where you can find how white supremacy/racism manifests itself in a million other things than just police brutality.  It sounds like they’re super willing to let us read all the awesome stuff they post, but please be respectful and just read/absorb and don’t ask the admin questions, just like they requested).

The Case for Reparations (on the history of institutionalized racism and how it carries through today)

Remember: listen to people, do something, and dear goodness, don’t trust Fox News.

EDIT: There’s a much more eloquent version of this written by someone else here:

Let’s Talk About “Boobs:” A Discussion About Transmisogyny

Hey, everybody.  This post has taken me way longer to write than I ever wanted it to, because I just can’t figure out how to say it.  I’ve thought about it for months, but I can’t find any answers.  So instead of trying to frame it for you nicely all figured out in a little package, I’m going to lay it out, confusion and loose ends and all. 

So, a few months ago Upworthy featured one of my poems, “Boobs.” You can see it here if you’re unfamiliar.  Besides from a few transphobes and the regular haters-gonna-hate, the response has been overwhelmingly positive.  I’ve gotten tons of awesome messages from people telling me how much it’s meant to them and how it makes them (a lot of whom are non-binary (and quite a few binary) trans people) not feel so alone in a world where non-binary (and trans, in general) erasure reigns.  For this, I am truly thankful.  The fact that something I said could help anyone at all (let alone be seen by hundreds of thousands of people) astounds and humbles me. 

But I’m not the kind of person who is okay with potentially shitting on someone else, even if it will help people like me.  Soon after Upworthy posted my video, an old friend messaged me, and I asked her if I could share some of her words while trying to explain this to people.  She said yes, and so I’m going to let you into the conversation.  It’s important to know for this conversation that she’s a trans woman, so she has the authority to speak to her own experiences.  It’s also important to know that I drafted this poem about 10 times, and she kindly agreed to check it over to try to detect any transmisogyny (hatred of trans women) I may have missed BEFORE I ever performed this poem for a large audience.  Since I’m not a trans woman, my privilege sometimes gets in the way of me recognizing transmisogyny when it’s present, and since it’s part of her survival to detect it, she has a much better understanding of subtler things that reinforce transmisogyny.  At the time of the initial reading (sometime in March), she didn’t find any lines or ideas that stood out to her as transmisogynistic.  But I think since then, both of our understandings grew as to how subtle transmisogyny can be, and I’m grateful she felt comfortable enough with me to bring up the newly-noticed issues.

The point is, sometimes you do your best to avoid saying things that might further someone’s oppression.  Sometimes you succeed.  Sometimes you don’t.  But you’ve always got to take responsibility for yourself and listen to the people you may be hurting. 

Enough pretext; here’s the conversation:

Her: “”I almost believed in God because I don’t trust nature to make anything this good.” — This line only applies to dfab people and definitely excludes any dmab trans person who’s had top surgery or packs their bra. In other words, trans women are going to get the brunt of this, because this line reinforces the idea that trans women are artificial and fake and unnatural. For me, it says that boobs are so amazing that either God (a concept I’m thinking you find asinine in how you deliver the line) or nature (which automatically excludes dmab people) made them, and anything else is not a thing. It subjects our womanhood to the whim of cis norms, which are also being reinforced by this line.

The penis on the elbow thing, it feels mocking of dmab trans people. For some of us, yes, our penis does feel like a foreign appendage that shouldn’t be there. I get that you’re trying to say “Hey there’s a part that doesn’t really belong here,” but the way it’s conveyed is rooted in transmisogyny. I mean, why’s it gotta be a penis? I don’t see why it would have to be a penis rather than anything else, like a can of air dust, a cutting board, a plate, a chair, or maybe something like wisdom teeth and how they can actually cause bacterial infections and other things if not removed.

That’s all I really wanted to address in the poem. Those are the two lines that really stand out. The rest is up to you now. The damage has already been done, and your influence on the queer + trans community is most likely working as a major player in spaces dominated by dfab trans people, which is pretty much all of them. I hope you’re up to the task of reconciliation. If not, it won’t do anything but benefit you.

Oh, and just thought of this, the penis part of the poem also seems to mock people with physical disfigurements, so it’s also ableist.”


Me: “Thanks for taking the time to talk to me about these things. I want to give a thorough response and hear your feedback if you have any suggestions for how to address these things to the broader public.

#1. I’m sorry I put transmisogynistic things in this poem.

#2.I can definitely see how transmisogyny would play into this in the nuances of the line. If I can ask a question (because when I wrote this, I did write it so that it wouldn’t specify gender). The overarching message of the poem is to allow people to have freedom over their bodies and not have gender assumed based off of bodies. I personally would consider any sort of surgery and/or packing under the “nature” category because nature is equated with the real world/ humankind, which I try to make clear with my clear atheistic viewpoint. I have also met trans women who refer to their chest as breasts before hormones/surgery/ etc., so I would include them. Does this make a difference, or is my interpretation of the line irrelevant? Because, obviously, as much as I would love the world to follow my train of logic, 95% of people will picture a dfab body based off of those lines.

#3. I don’t know if you actually expect an answer to this, but honestly, it’s a penis just because it’s an external sex organ that people would notice. It creates an image because there aren’t really any other external sex organs. Also, it’s something I heard someone use to talk about their dysphoria once. If I had thought of the possible implications of this earlier, I would have changed the specification of “sex organ” and used a neutral object.

#4. I am always open to reconciling with people when I’ve hurt them. It’s not my job (or realistic) for me to be perfect. But it is my obligation to learn, get better, and try to undo harm that I’ve done. Even though it is crucial to me to get any type of non-binary representation into the world (since there is pretty much zero), I don’t want to do that by stepping on the backs of other people.

#5. I have another question, if you want to engage in conversation. If not, totally fine. I can definitely see ableism at work; however, the critique of the line following that is that society limits people too much by their bodies and refuses to let people transcend the normative ideas associated with those. Those few lines to me are more about critiquing a society that doesn’t accept bodily variance than mocking the physical abnormality, since the blame is placed on society and not the abnormality. But, once again maybe my logic doesn’t matter, and my inclusion of the physical abnormality is exploitative.

Once again, thanks for your feedback. Do I have permission to use your observations and/or phrasing in conversations with people in the future when I try to talk about this?”


Her: “#2 — I think in this case you’ve gotta be honest with yourself about who the majority of your audience is: white cis queers (who are dfab most likely) and dfab trans people. I don’t think your interpretation is irrelevant, but you also have to think about how this audience is going to receive it, internalize it, and then communicate that message to others. It’s important to be super clear, and I don’t think your definition of ‘nature’ is clear enough within the poem, and in a poem like this, especially about trans identity, it might benefit from being stated explicitly.

#3 — I don’t doubt you heard someone use it to talk about their dysphoria. My assumption is this person is dfab, because I really doubt any dmab trans person would talk about it that way for a number of reasons.

#5 — I’d say that in those lines, it’s using physical abnormality in an exploitative way to make a point about trans identity and policing of bodies, which is a bit ironic because it somewhat employs body policing to make a point about body policing.

Mhm, you have my permission to use my observations + phrasing.”


You can read some of the conclusions that I drew in the conversation, and here are just a few more that I think are important to emphasize:

#1.  Clarity and specificity are extremely important.  Transmisogyny is taught to us in the ways in which we think about almost everything. Even though I didn’t even mean it as exclusive to trans women, the fact is that most people will receive it that way.  Keeping my audience in mind and the biases they bring with them is extremely important.

#2. I’m able-bodied, and so is the woman I was talking to, so I might not have all this figured out, and I don’t want to speak for communities I’m not a part of.  Obviously, my goal was not to enforce ableism by using disfigurement in a mocking way.  I think we’ve all got that my point was to say that the world is shitty and shouldn’t police our bodies (including disabled people/ differently abled people). I don’t know how to say it better in the poem yet, but I will keep revising and keep trying to make it less potentially harmful. 


Overall, you best believe that I am still learning, and there are revisions of this poem to come.  If any of you have suggestions and/or comments, I welcome them! I’m all about having conversations to fight transmisogyny and ableism. Once again, thank you to the woman that took the time to have a conversation with me, and thank you all for reading this.  I apologize again for any harm I may have caused to communities I’m not a part of, and let’s all try to be the most non-oppressive people we can be.  


Sending love and thanks,




Polyamory: We’re Probably More Boring Than You Think

I have a blog post for you today that is a little more positive than a few of my other posts! I’m going to talk about one of my favourite things in the world: polyamory.  So, I’m polyamorous and have been for a few years now.  (Poly = many.  Amorous = love).  This means that I date multiple people at the same time, with everyone’s knowledge and consent, in committed and loving relationships.  This post will address some common misconceptions and questions that I’ve gotten about being polyamorous, and hopefully it’ll be helpful.  If you have any other questions (that aren’t posed maliciously), I’m willing to answer them this time around, so ask away!

#1.  People who are polyamorous have commitment issues, which is why they can’t just “pick” one person to be with.   I run into this type of thinking a lot (mostly from heterosexual cisgender monogamous people), and I’ll explain things a little here to hopefully lessen the confusion.

First off, I want to stress that I am only representing myself and cannot speak for the entire poly community, and most people that I’ve met each do polyamory a little bit differently.  After all, we’re different people with different emotional and physical desires.

Secondly, the idea that monogamy = commitment isn’t accurate.  Since monogamy is the dominant ideology in our society, people often assume the dynamics and expectational contract within a relationship are, or should be, the same for everyone.  However, each relationship has unique dynamics, and each person has specific needs and expectations.  This means that one person’s “committed” is another person’s “smothered” is another person’s “not trying hard enough,” etc.

This means that the question for me isn’t “are you committed?”  The question is “what are you  committing yourself to, and is this the same expectation that your partner has?”

I am committed to all of my partners in different ways, and we’ve explicitly discussed the expectations and boundaries within our relationships.  For real, though, when I start dating someone new, I ask them the question “What are your expectations of this relationship?”

This question does a few things.  It   A. clarifies that the other person indeed would like to date me    B.  clarifies the level of physical/emotional/mental connection the other person would like to have with me    C. clarifies whether or not the other person is polyamorous or wants to date someone who is and      D. opens up dialogue for them to discuss any boundaries or preferences they might have for our interactions.

This means that I am equally as committed to my partner that I see a few times per week as I am to my parter I see twice a month as I am to my partner who I see once in a while, etc.  I am committed to whatever expectations we’ve agreed on.  Those expectations are just tailored to fit what’s best for each relationship.

#2. People who are polyamorous just want to have a lot of sex.  Well, some people like to have a lot of sex, and some people….don’t.  Some monogamous people like to have a lot of sex, and some don’t.  Some polyamorous people enjoy having a lot of sex, and some don’t.  There’s nothing wrong about having a lot of sex, nor is there anything wrong with never having sex.  There are some of my partners with whom we’ve agreed it would be a good idea for us to open up a physical relationship, and some partners where that’s just not the case.  One isn’t better than the other, and there are many varying shades in between: different types of physical intimacy feel better to different people than others.  Some people don’t ever want to have sex, but they do like kissing or cuddling.   Some people think a certain type of sex is just the best ever.  It all just depends on personal preference and what is consensual and mutually desired in each relationship.

#3.  But don’t you get jealous? Once again, I’m assuming this could be answered many ways by many different people, but honestly, I don’t really get jealous.  I’m satisfied in all of my relationships, and I have pretty good communication with all of my partners.  Many people assume that jealousy is an instinctual emotion, but that’s actually not the case.  One of my partners explained it very well like this.  So, we have primary emotions such as fear, frustration, dissatisfaction, happiness, shame, guilt, etc.  Then we have secondary emotions such as jealousy, distrust, worry, insecurity, anger, disdain, etc.  This means that we first feel one of the primary emotions, which is a direct response to something happening, and then we feel a secondary emotion, such as jealousy.  For example, when a person sees someone they love kissing someone else, they first feel fear of being left, then they feel jealousy.  Or they first feel dissatisfied emotionally or sexually, then they feel jealous.  See how that works?  The issue often isn’t that the partner broke some sacred rule by kissing someone else; the issue is that one partner feels inadequate, frustrated, or dissatisfied within the relationship, and jealousy/feeling betrayed is a result of those primary emotions.

Does this make everyone who gets jealous a bad person?  No, definitely not.  What it means for me in my relationships is that if one of my partners get jealous, we address the primary emotion.  If one of my partners feels jealousy when I’m talking about another partner, I ask them if I’m paying enough attention to them.  I ask them if they’re dissatisfied emotionally in some way, or if they’re frustrated about something else in their life.  Then we fix that.  This means that we actually address the root of the issue.  Even if I never kissed another person in my life, that wouldn’t make the jealousy go away– the jealousy will only go away once the primary emotion is taken care of.

#4. But I mean, like, STIs? It’s just risky to be poly.  Once again, this is contingent on the faulty assumption that all of us are banging like rabbits.   Also, we are adults that are capable of negotiating boundaries and having safe sex.  We can all only control our own actions.  This is why I believe in boundary-based relationships instead of rule-based relationships (another idea that I learned from one of my partners).  Here’s what I mean.  Instead of saying “I forbid you to have unprotected sex with someone else,” which is ultimately a rule attempting to control someone else’s behaviour, I set a boundary: “If you choose to have unprotected sex with someone else, I am going to choose not to have sex with you.”  In the second boundary-based statement, I am only controlling my own actions and protecting myself from the risk of STIs by responding appropriately to someone else’s actions.  This type of boundary-based communication makes for much healthier and happier relationships, in my experience.

#5. How many people are you dating? Hmmmm that’s a tough one that I get a lot.  Honestly, so many people define dating as so many different things.  Some people consider it dating when they have sex with people, but some people just have sex and aren’t dating.  Some people are dating and never have sex.  Some people consider themselves dating even if they live halfway across the country, and some people don’t consider themselves dating even if they see each other every day, go on dates, and live next door.  Basically, I ask someone if they think we’re dating and if they’d like me to introduce them as my partner.  If they say yes, then I guess we’re dating, whatever that means.  By that count, I’m gonna go with maybe three or four?

#6. That’s a lot of people.  How do you have time for that? Well, I have a planner and excellent time management skills.  If you’re not willing to be scheduled into my life, then you’re probably not going to enjoy dating me.  Also, like, most people have more than one friend, and somehow that works out?  It’s almost like we have time for more than one person in our lives.  (Aaaand the snark comes out).

#7. ORGIES???  Not for me.  Thanks, though.  Maybe later.

Alright, I want to keep this blog post pretty short, but it might grow with more questions in the future.  In closing, healthy relationships are based off of respect, communication, and honesty, regardless of what type or how many people you’re dating.   Also, consent, consent, consent!

Dealing With Hate Speech and Unsafe Spaces

Trigger Warning: transphobia, hate speech

Welcome to the conversation.  So, recently, I got into an internet debate with someone.  Wait, actually, it wasn’t a debate.  It was an argument in which hate speech was leveraged against me.

Here’s the situation: I responded to an article written for my college newspaper’s opinion section, in which a self-identified middle class, white, straight, Christian girl (I’m assuming cisgender) tried to use the whole “intolerant of intolerance” argument to claim that she had been unjustly attacked for her views on same-sex marriage.  When she spoke up in class to defend her view that same sex couples should not be allowed to get married, there was a slew of responses from the rest of the class (which contained many queer people and allies) that critiqued her opinion.

Simply, clearly, and without apology, I tried to explain why some people might not be “tolerant” of this girl’s viewpoints.  Here is my initial response:

“I think it’s important here to recognize the difference between feeling uncomfortable being challenged as a person who has privilege (which is you, since middle-classness, whiteness, and being part of a major religion are all privileged identities, not to mention you are probably cisgender, although I don’t want to assume) and actually experiencing oppression (which is what your viewpoint is promoting towards same-sex couples). As a transgender, queer, lower class, atheist and polyamorous person, a lot of the views that Christianity promotes directly contribute to my oppression. The thing is that when my voice is silenced (by anything that doesn’t support me having equal rights as any other human being) that contributes to my oppression. Transgender and queer people aren’t validated under the safety net of Christianity (after all, this country is supposed to have religious freedom, but yet we still have God on our money, in our pledge, in our legal oaths, etc.). When you speak up about promoting oppression and are silenced, you are merely made uncomfortable. When I am silenced while trying to fight my oppression, I experience more oppression. Being tolerant of “intolerance” isn’t tolerance. It’s giving a pass for privileged people to oppress others.”

I also included a follow-up comment acknowledging some of my own privileges and possible solutions for this girl to rectify the harm she had caused:

“And I want to take a moment to acknowledge some of my own privilege. I’m not saying I don’t have privilege, because I definitely do in certain respects in my identity (whiteness, education, etc.). What that means is that I step back and stop talking in conversations where I could harm people because of my privilege. Until I know how to talk about things in a non-harmful matter, my voice should not be in the conversation. Also, step one to being a good ally: apologize when you’ve harmed a group of people. Then ask what you can do to fix it. Which is what I’m going to recommend in this situation. :)”

Unsurprisingly, I got a little bit of backlash from other white, straight, cisgender Christians defending this girl’s “bravery.”  I had a person tell me that oppression doesn’t exist in the United States, “as if anyone who has lived their entire lives in the US actually knows what oppression is,” to which I replied:

“There are millions of people in the U.S. that experience real oppression on a daily basis. For a quick proof, look at the statistics for homeless transgender youth, murder statistics for trans women of colour (which are the highest targeted members within the LGBTQ+ community), incarceration rates for any of those people above, etc. I am less likely to be hired for a job or given a lease because I’m trans*. I’m less likely to be provided necessary health care or to have an insurance company that will cover my health care. And I’m white and able-bodied. When you add in the intersections of everyone else’s identities that are part of the trans* community alone, it’s disgusting and frightening how at risk a lot of us are. There’s nothing I can say to you if you don’t believe oppression exists, and honestly, the fact that you say that makes me feel very unsafe within this conversation, because it makes you much more likely to promote attitudes that harm me and a lot of the people in my community who have less privilege than I do. And actually, Christianity has begun a lot of movements that directly oppress and harm people. The Crusades, anyone? Colonization? The passages from the Bible people cited to sanction hate against people of colour? Homosexuals? Trans* people? I could go on forever. Christianity doesn’t HAVE to be an oppressive force, but the fact of the matter is that in the past, it definitely HAS been, and I won’t apologize for retaliating when you just tried to silence my voice when I spoke up about behaviours that harm me. You might want to read my initial post more thoroughly.”

And the kind person’s response:

“See? Even my dissent is labeled an attempt to “silence your voice”. Have you even considered that maybe we just don’t agree? Have you ever actually had to interact with people who don’t share all your political views?’
I have no doubt that discrimination and prejudice exist in society. You’d be hard pressed to find a single society where they do not. That is not the same thing as oppression. The fact that you can post your opinions on this forum means that you are not oppressed. Try doing that in North Korea, China, or Russia.”

To which I replied (and don’t worry, there’s not going to be much more back and forth in this blog post):

“#1. This is not a “political view.” This is who I am as a human being, and who my friends, partners, and other loved ones are as human beings. There is no “political disagreement.” There are people who think we deserve equal rights and people who don’t. #2. I grew up in a very conservative, heteronormative, Christian, white, small town. I have dealt with people who invalidate my personhood on a daily basis. #3. Oppression is discrimination against a group of people that exists on social, institutional, and systematic levels. Which definitely exists in the United States, and definitely exists for transgender people in the United States. The examples of other countries indicate that oppression is not limited to one country only, and that there are levels of oppression and intricate ways in which different identities are treated under various systems. #4. I am telling you to A. Stop silencing my voice. B. Check your privilege. C. Don’t you dare ever try to tell me that you know more about my own experiences than I do. D. Apologize to all of the people you have harmed within this conversation. #5. I am leaving this conversation now, because you are causing me emotional harm. I recommend you do some research before you ever try to have another conversation with someone whom you show such clear disrespect for as a human being.”

ALRIGHT, FOLKS, HERE WE GO. There’s a lot to unpack here alone (the way my voice wasn’t deemed relevant even though I experience oppression from this girl’s viewpoint, the way the responder resorted to attacking my personal character, the way false assumptions were leveraged against me, etc.).  But we haven’t even gotten to the real meat of this yet.  More people jumped on the hate train!  And here’s where the conversation turns into flat-out hate speech.

Responder #2:

“Those who scream the loudest for tolerance are without exception the most intolerant. Ms. Jasper you don’t owe anyone an apology nor do you have any reasons to doubt your own beliefs and opinions. Those people who attacked you are what we would call “the weak”. The weak are usually inferior, lazy, and riddled with low self esteem. Now in your home and my home these problems would have been solved by our parents or family by requiring us to take responsibility for our lives and actions from our early youth and as such we would have a reason to see ourselves in a better light. The weak, take Ollie the poet there for instance, will list as many things as possible they can claim offends them and therefore grants them victim status. In Ollie’s case he/she wears 5 different medals of offense in transgender, atheist, queer, poor, and polyamorous. So anything that doesn’t go his/her way or any instance where someone else is favored over him/her for a job, promotion, date, whatever… can all be blamed on one or all of these traits. Ollie never has to take responsibility for his/her actions and can instruct you to apologize to a group for your beliefs. Ollie honestly believes you owe the world an apology and why? Because your beliefs aren’t the same as his/hers. Let that digest for a moment. See? See the arrogance in that request? You had a class full of people who are going to learn a hard cruel lesson the first year they’re out of school, trying to make you the bad guy because you’re white and you’re a Christian. Whatever problems they have are theirs not yours. Before you adopt their beliefs because you’re bullied…. look around you at all of them and see what kind of people they are. They’re loud, hateful, vindictive, intolerant and contribute nothing to the world except for the endless array of whining about what a victim of society they are. We’re all responsible for ourselves and frankly the world doesn’t owe you anything and doesn’t give a fk if you think it does. Stay strong and never apologize for your beliefs. The Bible said in the end we’ll be the bad guys so take that as an award and thank God that the weak and ineffective call you privileged as though you should be ashamed of it. Catch up to them in 15 years and see what they’ve become.”

I decided not to respond to this comment for the best of my emotional health, and I had a whole slew of really great friends and allies who performed that work for me, pointing out many of the flaws within this argument and giving me emotional support.  Here are a few sentences of my favourite responses:

“Its necessary to flag what you are saying. You are calling Ollie inferior and weak. This is hate speech and transphobic.

There are many systems in place on social, institutional and systematic levels that deny and negate Ollie’s identity. Lets use your example. You said not being “favored” for job a is something trans people would blame on being trans and “not take responsibility for.” In 33 states you can be fired for your gender identity. To deny someone a right you would give someone else because of their identity is oppression. You cannot equate this with not taking responsibility for your actions.

It is different to be angry that you are denied rights because of your identity than to be be upset that people don’t share your beliefs.”

“”Those people who attacked you are what we would call “the weak”. The weak are usually inferior, lazy, and riddled with low self esteem.” I thought that was privileged people? Because honestly, privileged people might be the most easily offended, babied group in the entire country (read: they most definitely are). They seem to constantly go onto random articles that address systemic discrimination and go “You know, if you just w0o0o0o0orked harder, and stopped playing the victim card, you could be like me!” Way to eat the neoliberal BS cookie. It seems privileged people also have an ego issue, because everything needs to be centered around them. How… typical.”

Alright, so you all have been very patient through reading this whole conversation, and if you’re still curious about more of the specifics, feel free to read the article and the comments thereafter. But to wrap up this blog post, I’m going to give you a few closing thoughts on why what Responder #2 said that was 100% not okay.  Some of these points have already been articulated by my partner Ashley in her response to the thread, but they bear repeating.

#1. Calling a trans* person “weak and inferior” is straight-up hate speech.

#2. “Now in your home and my home these problems would have been solved by our parents or family by requiring us to take responsibility for our lives and actions . . .”  I don’t know if you noticed, everybody, but I DID take responsibility for my actions, my privilege, and how my actions should follow based off of that privilege.  I even included handy suggestions (see my second comment) for other people with privilege.

#3. The use of “his/hers.”  This is an age-old way to disrespect me as a non-binary trans* person. I do not exist in terms of man/woman.  This “he/she/whatever” bullshit is getting really old. I didn’t assume anyone’s pronouns throughout the conversation: neither should you.

#4. ” . . . because you are bullied.”  Alright, Michelle Bachmann.  I forgot that white, cis, straight, Christian people have such a hard time being bullied while they get all of their holidays off, are more likely to be hired for jobs, accepted for housing, and instantly given respect, not to mention the fact that they don’t have to explain themselves to every person they meet.  They also have bathrooms they are safe in, medical staff who are educated about them, and literally still have their God acknowledged in most of the President’s speeches.

#5. “We are all responsible for ourselves.”  You’re right.  We are.  So I’ll be waiting over here for the apology you owe to me and to the rest of the queer and transgender community.

In closing, I’ve been asked by various people whether or not hate speech bothers me.  I’ve also reached out to others to learn how to deal with it and how to protect myself against it.  Of course hate speech bothers me.  Of course it hurts to be called “inferior, lazy, and riddled with low self esteem.”  I remember back when my rapist would call me those things, and it took me years to build my confidence back from being emotionally and sexually abused.  Hate speech is a form of abuse.  So yes, hate speech hurts me.  Especially because the people using it don’t know or don’t care about how much harm they are causing.

So please, never allow your religion to be an excuse for hating other human beings.  We are human beings, and we deserve respect.

Activism And Self-Love

Ashley Allan

For all the folks involved in the work, it is news to nobody that this stuff gets really tough. Some days are excruciatingly difficult, and other days you really wonder if your life will actually leave any kind of dent on these oppressive systems. Being an activist is hard. Living as a marginalized person is hard. In this post, I do not necessarily want to address how to fix everything (because I don’t know how to), but I do want to talk about self-love for activists.

I am an educator and writer who dabbles in multiple forms: essays, short stories, novels, page poetry, and spoken word. Lately, I have been focusing a lot on the essay writing portion while dabbling in page poetry and short stories. My educational efforts have me interning at a public charter school, where I work with this school’s feminist club and GSA (gender and sexuality alliance)…

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